Becoming a Yoga instructor is alot more of challenge to me than I ever thought it would be. It is quite humbling. I am teaching my first official class this Thursday. Now, yes, I have been teaching my practicum classes ever since I got home from my Yoga Teacher Training in Hawaii. I have been getting positive feedback from my students, which is really nice.
What I have discovered is that it’s something from within that I need to trust and believe. It is not like I can just be the same as some of my mentor yoga instuctors. I can be like them, but I have to be me. I am still trying to find me, as a yoga instructor.
Friends have been asking me if I remember feeling this way when I first started teaching Pilates 10 years ago. I have to say, I don’t think so. What is the difference? I think it is the spiritual element. It is not just about exercise or asana. It is so much more.
I ask myself what is it about my yoga gurus that I love so much, that I fear I don’t possess inside of me? I know, I learned, that everything we really need is what we already possess inside. I believe I have love and positivity to share. Why am I so scared, and what am I scared of? Failing? No, it’s not an option. Please send me some loving thoughts for my Thursday class at 5pm. I so want to do a good job! I have been dreaming and night-maring about it since last Thursday.
I found this lovely poem I thought was appropriate and wanted to share. I may read it in my class Thursday. Keep posted, I will fill you in with the details of class on Thursday.
Our Greatest Fear —Marianne Williamson
it is our light not our darkness that most frightens us
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.